My lost architecture life...
Last week I watched My Architect: A Son's Journey, a documentary movie made by Nathaniel Kahn, the secret son of legendary architect, Loius Kahn. It was norminated for best documentary for Oscars in 2003. Apart from Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, it's possibly one of the best movies I've seen this year.
Friends of mine'd know that I was once doing architecture and quit because I thought the course was too easy and I didn't want to waste my talent. Close friends of mine would know that I quit because I didn't like the course and I couldn't handle the pressure.
I felt relieved after the movie. Not that it was a wise choice to quit architecture as most architects are either bastards, alcoholics or drug abusers, just that I couldn't be as brilliant as Louis Kahn. And hell knows how many unknown architects out there are switching their careers to become chefs or marine biologists (not kidding).
I felt relieved because if I'm going to be unknown and forgotten, I want to at least enjoy my life for myself, not others. If I'm going to die trying, might as well be for something that is significant to my life. Therefore, I don't regret quitting a professional course.
Society wants us to think that being a professional means being successful. That's why we see waves of graduates trying so hard to be a doctor/lawyer/accountant/architect. So what happens to the farmers? Refrigerator repairers? 7-11 cashiers? No, don't give me shit like you don't look down on them. EVERYBODY look down on mobile jobs. Don't try to tell me that you think everybody is equal. Think about it, if your children come up to you and say they want to be a blackjack card dealer or a street mime when they grow up, will you approve? For me, I'd be rolling on the floor trying not to suffocate out of laughing.
Actually, forget all I've just said. It's all excuses. I couldn't do it because I couldn't handle the responsibility. I hate responsibilities. Architects have the biggest responsibility of all. A doctor handles a life at a time. Lawyers, well, it's about justice and law enforcement. You lose a case, at least someone's a winner. Accountants, who cares? They're going to hell anyway. Now architects, they build buildings, skyscrappers, toilets. If something goes wrong, say, the building crumbles, they're responsible for 5000 lives. Shit, Justin, See Cing, Yee Shi (my architecture friends), how can you sleep?
I say blame the civil engineers.